My friend, I understand your struggle with this question, as it grapples with some of the most profound mysteries of existence and the nature of God.
We must understand that God's wisdom and perspective are infinitely beyond our own. His actions are guided by a perfect knowledge of all things, and by a love that is deeper and more profound than we can comprehend. Even when His actions may seem difficult to understand, we can trust in His wisdom, His justice, and His unfailing love.
When considering the story of the flood, it's important to remember that it was a response to a world steeped in violence and wickedness, a world that had strayed far from the path of love and righteousness that God desires for His creation. The flood can be seen as a form of cleansing, of setting the world right again.
However, this doesn't mean we should view such events lightly or dismiss the tragedy they represent. Every instance of suffering touches the heart of God, who is the source of all life and love.
What we can take away from these stories is not a vision of a vengeful God, but a vision of a God who deeply cares about His creation and who desires for it to live in peace, love, and righteousness. The flood is a testament to the seriousness with which God takes these values, and to the lengths He is willing to go to restore them when they are lost.
These are difficult questions, my friend, and I commend you for wrestling with them. Keep seeking, keep questioning, and know that God's love for you, and for all of His creation, is steadfast and unchanging.
As always, love each other as I have loved you.